Camp

3 days of orientation camp was awesome, enjoy it very much. At first when I first heard that we'll be camping during orientation camp, I really dislike it, I thought that it was gonna be like very boring, and cause we'll be sleeping in tents. So I didn't really look forward to this camp but no choice still have to go. After the 2 hours and 30 minutes of bus drive, we finally arrived at Tapah SUFEUS Campsite ( I think it spells this way). We put our luggages outside the hall and went for briefing. The highlight of the day was the night walk. It was so scary, because we really went into the jungle and it was drizzling and dark. The ground was wet and slippery. The funny part was that when I heard funny noises I ran and scream but I was so afraid and I grab hold strongly of my teammates and I accidentally scratched them. I wanna say sorry guys. Later only did I know that it was the Orang Asli kids that was making that noise. The fun part of the night walk was when you need to cross the stream and it was slippery and the water was flowing quick and everyone was safe. Lights out at 12 a.m. and the seniors were scouting out to see if we were sleeping. I had a hard time sleeping on the first night because my sleeping bag was to thin and the ground was to hard and I didn't dare to make a lot of noise because I fear that I will get punished. During the second day, we had the second part of the No Apologise seminar. After this seminar I vow to practice abstinence after hearing this seminar to save myself for marriage and not to get involve with pre-marital sex. The highlight of the second day was the stream trotting. Although it was a long distance walk, but it was very fun. We need to cross through lots of rocks in order to get to the water fall and the water was quick. But the fun part was we get to refresh ourselves in the water fall and it was very cooling. we also have night games and it was fun because we get to work together as a team. The third day at 3.30 a.m. in the morning, the seniors woke us up to play some kind of mystery game. I was like dude..it's like 3.30 a.m. in the morning...I just manage to get some rest and you wanna play game...what!The thing that I learn from camp is to open up to others and to work as a team. I also learn to fit in, to learn to accept new stuff in life. New experiences in life could be fun and memorable. I also learn not to be so self centered, learned to lend others a helping hand and I also learn to think outside the box. I think after this camp, I tend to be more mature mentally and emotionally as I learned to accept new things in life. Orientation camp is a good training ground for transition from high school to college. I wanna thank you to my group members,thanks guys for the fun time we have as a group during this camp and thanks for helping me out during the hiking. I also want to say thank you to people who help me during camp and to the facilitators because without you guys, this camp won't exist. I really enjoy this camp and I start to look forward to college life.

Wasted

Today I wore my school uniform to college. Shocking right.....The answer is because of the what so ever orientation thing say must either wear your school uniform or dress formal. Their main motif is sure want to like bully people like us and the seniors like staring, yucks. When I went for community service, and the people like keep asking me and my friend why are you all in school uniforms then when have to like keep telling them is the orientation thing. What sucks is that they made you arrive to school at 7 in the morning and give a fake assembly thing, so lame, duh. Really wasting time...we can use the one hour and like revise homework or like go for chapel service. Really hated it because it makes me feel tired and it's really a waste of time, not beneficial at all. So angry..economics I mess up the whole concept..argh..why...like why can't I get it. Argh...I feel like a complete loser, I mean like why can't I be one of those smart and pretty girls in college. Completely disappointed with my character.

Something different

College life is very tiring...assignments, homework, presentations. I feel that sometimes in life, you try to open up to the new people around you. But once you open out and let people see the real you, to let them know the real you....you tend to get worry because you feared that others will dislike your character. I hate the feeling when others talk behind your back, boy-cot you. This really hurts. Is this the price you have to pay when you open up to new people in life. I really don't know what you guys are thinking. I really want to give you guys the best impression. Sometimes I know it's my fault to become so emo because I really miss my high school friends or sometimes I'm just so tired to talk. I don't want you all to think that I'm a very ego person. After being emo, I feel really bad and I'm trying my best to change. I'm trying my very best to socialize with you all. Trying my very best to like this college, to fit in. I hope you all will understand and give me the time to adapt to this massive change in life. I know that I saw some improvement during this few weeks in college at least I don't often drag myself out of bed every morning to go to college like the few previous weeks, at least I try to smile whenever I see familiar faces. I know socializing is not what I'm good at but I will try my best. Since I have chosen the path to leave high school and I know there's no turning back, so I must bravely walk this path. God please help me, I really need you. I really don't know what to do.

I'm back

After 2 weeks of college....still taking time to adapt to this new environment. College, I would say is a massive 360 degrees turnover plus extra pressure and more responsibility. I don't know why I will suddenly become so emo and then come back home and cry. Maybe is because I miss the cozy home feeling where you can spend time chatting with your friends, go and have lunch together. This kind of time are gone and my heart is fill with emptiness...I don't really know how to explain...Is like missing a piece in a puzzle. I really miss my friends in high school and the teachers as well. I took Economics, Business Studies, Accounting, Modern Maths and Chinese Studies.So much homework and assignments. Argh....when is my holiday? I'm taking Christian Fellowship as my society. Quite fun plus got cute boys...lol. Yeap and I'm planning to take Drama as my second extra activity, shocking right. Actually I really enjoy performing on stage but please don't ask me to go up and give a speech...I will totally freak out. Really hope that through this kind of activity I can get to meet new people and practice my socializing skill. During this 2 weeks, meet new people. Yeap and I kinda screwed up...loss some friends..ouch. Although it hurts, I think it's part of growing up. I learn from my mistakes. Wanna apologize for my emo over this two weeks and I want to thank my friends for encouraging me and being able to spend time listening to me, I really appreciate it. You guys are the best.I can't be that emo anymore...I gotta get up and stand tall. God please help me to adapt in this new environment and also please help me to become the person that you want me to be. I place my future in Your hands.

Sports Day

Hey guys, typing Chinese is very slow..so I prefer writing it in English.Sports day is kinda cool.Have a great time there.Honestly speaking...the first day was kinda boring...most of us were doing our own stuff,erhem...including me to lah...hehe...cause not in the mood yet. The second day was AWESOME, our class was in unity,I was about to scream until my lungs burst in order to cheer for my class, it was really fun. The fun part was doing the wave thing...it started a bit"cold"...until we booh does juniors who were not doing it, but at last they did it,cool...I can't believe that our form teacher ran in the relay race, she was good. Our class went to support her, by calling her"little flower",she blushed and shhh us, but I know deep down she really loves it.Despite the hot sun and the blackening of my skin...I turn to love sports day.Now do I realize that high school can be fun, despite all the exams and the so ever stuffs.This will be one of the most memorable day of my high school life...thanks guys for making this day so remarkable. At last,I hope this class will continue to stay united.

虚弱

有时我觉得自己太虚弱,人家讲YES,就跟着讲YES,很怕说NO.明明心里想NO,可是偏偏说YES....做人太失败了,怕得罪人家就要这样..太没有尊严了...ARGH...我太没有用了.帮人家完成工作,却增加了自己的负担,值得吗?为何要自我折磨?你几时才学会?对自己说...我不可一再这样下去了.更可悲的是...帮了人...还要求这样多.难到是我"样衰"..所以给人HAP,什么道理...S***.只能说世界就是这样,强者每次欺弱.总结来说...要活在这残酷的世界..就要强大起来..不然就会给人家HAP....

教师节

今年是我最后一年庆祝教师节,其实我蛮期待的.我觉得我最享受的是弄"爱心早餐"的过程,很好玩,可以展现下厨艺.能看到自己的心意被老师提悟到,是一种快乐.今年的教师节讲真有一点儿闷.在班上玩团康活动...蛮好玩下的...最enjoy是最后的游戏...虽然我起初觉得玩的团康游戏有点儿幼稚啦...我觉得今天我们唱"金曲"给"小花"听,她的表情很好笑...脸看她好像很不好意思酱(蛮可爱下的啦)...我觉得其实她有被我们感动到叻...but我最enjoy是今天能够迎接老师,很好玩下的,虽然等了蛮久下的..然后可以趁机"枪"sejarah老师的礼蓝..虽然不成功啦..因为他抱到这样紧..然后跑的那么快...一定给我们吓坏了...很可爱下的...