Something different

College life is very tiring...assignments, homework, presentations. I feel that sometimes in life, you try to open up to the new people around you. But once you open out and let people see the real you, to let them know the real you....you tend to get worry because you feared that others will dislike your character. I hate the feeling when others talk behind your back, boy-cot you. This really hurts. Is this the price you have to pay when you open up to new people in life. I really don't know what you guys are thinking. I really want to give you guys the best impression. Sometimes I know it's my fault to become so emo because I really miss my high school friends or sometimes I'm just so tired to talk. I don't want you all to think that I'm a very ego person. After being emo, I feel really bad and I'm trying my best to change. I'm trying my very best to socialize with you all. Trying my very best to like this college, to fit in. I hope you all will understand and give me the time to adapt to this massive change in life. I know that I saw some improvement during this few weeks in college at least I don't often drag myself out of bed every morning to go to college like the few previous weeks, at least I try to smile whenever I see familiar faces. I know socializing is not what I'm good at but I will try my best. Since I have chosen the path to leave high school and I know there's no turning back, so I must bravely walk this path. God please help me, I really need you. I really don't know what to do.