Grown

Woah, it has been a long time since I typed my last blog and I'm back again. I found out that I became more mature in handling issues in life. Like this week, some naive people said that my attitude become bad and keep telling others that I've changed. No I didn't change at all...makes no sense at all. I think they cannot accept the fact that now that I've starting to open up and they see the true me....I don't really care if you guys said that I'm faking or what. I just realized this week that you don't have to be really over sensitive to your actions but when you reflect back and think that your actions are okay, then its okay. So regarding this issue, I've choose not to associate with this kind of people and make more new friends in life. I've also learned that making new friends in life is like putting a bet, you got to try whether this friendship will work, if it doesn't work, you will feel hurt for a while but you won't regret it because at least you have try your best. I think I feel stronger now, don't feel intimidated or to say less self pity now, maybe I see things in a more positive way. I just finish my qualifying test this week, so stress out. I screwed up for business and economics. I really hope that I can pass. The essays are like so hard....and my mind went completely blank for the Econs paper. I said to myself I know it feels bad to screw up but you can try harder next time. This week I did something I find it shocking and have no idea why I did it....It goes like this...I saw my neighbor who went to the same college as I do and I went up to him and said are you xxx, then he said yes, and then I asked him do you live in xxx, then he said yes. Then I went and say...I'm your neighbor. Then he said oh...are you from delta class then I said no...I'm from arts. Then what sucks is that his friends gave me the pissed off look....disgusting. Although I feel quite bad and angry but at least I have the courage which the old me won't have to go out and say hello to someone else that you didn't quiet knew. I was trying to be friendly....but anyway I've play my part as trying to be a nice neighbor. Those looks..forget it.